Why is complexity stomped on when I apply it to explaining my behaviors? I realize many perceive my assessment as a permissible rationalization for my actions. How ridiculous this is and it upsets me so and maybe simply because it is my bandwagon for expected sympathy. This is strenuous to admit and not at all and ideology for which I wish to advertise.

And what about normality? As I rebel against American standardization in lifestyle and embrace hedonism I quickly dismiss the implications to self-sanity my behaviors have. I grow weary and psychologically exhausted from the polarization in thought process and this is a ridiculous and powerful lack of self-control.

Self-admonishment and habitual deliveries of senses of failure are prominent. What epiphany will or can there be where I will, through magic, change to something I aspire to be?

What it comes down to, what must be and is the final conclusion is that I am in control and responsible for my actions. This is readily apparent through careful observance of this truth in any social media. Even with “en vogue” spiritual and psychological remedies ever so present in America it cannot be those therapies in and of themselves that cure ailments of affliction. For it is impossible for us to act involuntarily unless under extreme duress caused by an external entity and even then, as controversial as the idea might be, we still execute a decision, which is an organic component of our very existence of our humanity.

A powerul actualization, counter to what many might believe to be true, but the similar flavors in exhibited action, or even lack thereof is evidence enough of this power. Popular is the externalization or deflection of this control, and for many reasons I believe, all of which dismantles any relevance to identifying the “correct” or “perfect” methodology. It is the subscription to indoctrination which can, and often is, directly counter-productive to the very effort of control itself. I would be entirely hypocritical if I were even to state that abandoning such dependencies is the proper way to handle affliction in mental sanity–acting identical to the very programs I would be criticizing.

Ian D. Campbell