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Recently I had the pleasure of photographing a vow renewal ceremony of some very close friends. I have known Joe and Alma for nearly 10 years now and felt honored to be their photographer for this special day.

Initially, even according to Alma, everyone thought this was to be a simple and short ceremony. When I realized that with a full rehearsal, rehearsal dinner and the the use of a wedding party that the simple “vow renewal” was more like “Joe and Alma’s wedding 2.0.” I became quite anxious with my responsibility of ensuring the photos would satisfy not only my expectations but those of Joe and Alma’s. As I pranced around the day before taking test shots, Alma was very sweet as she kept reassuring me that even if the photos did not turn out it would be the memory of the experience alone that would mean the most.

After I developed the test shots I was disappointed and frustrated with how atrocious they ended up being as the lighting in the church was so poor for which my flash techniques could not compensate. I reacted quickly, traveling to a camera store and purchasing a new and modern flash for my 30 year old SLR camera but still lacked the confidence that this alone would solve the problem.

It was then that I telephoned a good friend, Tim Murphy, who has significant professional-like photography experience. I described the setting to him and without professional remote wireless flash units he said, I would be out of luck. There was one technique, however, with which he did not have experience, was controversial at best, but might save the photos after all. He indicated that the problem was with the tall ceilings and that bouncing the flash at 180° from the it would not retain enough light for the exposures. A deflector, allowing for the bouncing of a softer light off of the subjects might solve the problem. (One must never use direct flash on subjects between 4 and 30 feet away as it causes unattractive brightness and likely red eye).

So sure enough, the use of a white piece of cardboard did the trick. Aiming the flash straight up to bounce of the ceiling and holding the “deflector” behind the flash provided enough soft and brilliant light so that the photographs turned our perfectly.

I cannot thank you enough Tim for your advice. It saved my personal integrity and the photos.

And for Joe and Alma: knowing all of us were quite pleased with the photographs gave me much relief from my anxiety as well as so much happiness. More important though, was that I was able to participate in an event which allowed you to share your timeless love and commitment with your closest family members and friends. (Not to mention all of the fun we had at the rehearsal “dinner” and at Dicken’s afterwards). I love you both and look forward to another 10 years of our friendship. You are an example to all of us of what it means to be in love and raise a close-knit, diverse and fun family.

Cheers,

Ian D. Campbell

Suspicions are early in the morning and they are inducing not the very nostalgia to which I am accustomed but a mild anxiety—a fear of enticing anticipation.

The vibrancy of accomplishment, though, remains an oracle—full of promises of sensibility, confidence, discernment and rational thought. Being caressed by this sentiment deflates any of the ridiculous externalizations I have created in the past.

It can be easy to jump to assignment of self-inflicted senses of inadequacy or shame when these stimuli present themselves and I react with mild curiousity and attraction. I pause—for more than just a moment—and wonder how I am to react, in an effort to dismantle my assembling of a negative sense of self.

Through this reflection it appears that in my shame exists a fresh acknowledgement of my history of behaviors where I disregarded any consequence—truly and blatantly discounting the impact my choice had on the well-being of myself and others. This monstrosity which I so willingly welcomed was an abandoning of my intended nature.

Thus it is my conclusion that I grieve the loss of character, trust and respect when I was the person of whom I am ashamed and embarrassed to have been. It may not be those alluring ideas that subtly present themselves to me to which I assign shame, but the experince of disembodiment that occurs itself.

This event is a transition in state that seems to be automatic because I appear to have no control over its occurrence. The absence of control is a catalyst to the precursor of the grief of the losses I described earlier. My point of frustration is attempting to explain my apparent handicap of being enraptured by the lusts to which I once so easily succumbed.

Being a fan of science I may dismiss this invasion of rational thought as the natural reparations of brain chemistry—an erasing of the believed immunity I once had towards the consequences of my behaviors along with half of a lifetime of participation. Although I despise blind inclusion of my experience into accepted common theory or categorization the fact remains that there are—and always will be—entities and or events over which we have little or no control, one of those being our subconscious.

Ian D. Campbell

My first exposure to the great state of Colorado was in Boulder, staying with my cousin-in-law. (Can one say “cousin-in-law”)?

Boulder reminds me so much of Berkley, with its “be green” attitude, ultra pedestrian friendly streets, downtown muses and rich varieties in colors. (I will be including photos of downtown Boulder in the next week or so).

One of the reasons for my visit was to photograph my 3rd wedding. (Well, not my third wedding, but the third wedding photo shoot I’ve done). I was very nervous as I knew many of the shots I would be taking were indoors and flash photography is definitely not my forte. To prepare, I decided to experiment with the flash both indoors and outdoors (at night).

This series, entitled Sheila’s Kitchen is just that with several shots using a flash. I feel they turned out quite well considering. I hope you enjoy.

Ian D. Campbell

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Greetings, fellow AF fans.

In 2002, I lost my contracting job with Rockwell Automation, which in the end turned out to be OK as the events following precipitated my relocation to the Twin Cities. (A much better place for me than Milwaukee).

Following my being let go, I decided to use my very first credit card ever and book a trip to Florida to visit my grandparents. At 22, the idea of a credit card being money that you owe the bank was the last thing on my mind which gave me the liberties of spending any amount I so chose on this trip. (Now of course, at the ripe age of 30, I figured out that I still have to pay that debt).

It was a worthwhile trip full of beach relaxation and exploration with just myself and the rental car. It was in a small fisherman village of Tarpon Springs (not too far away from Tampa) where I found the most excitement with its beautiful wharf, buildings, shops and sceneries. Predominately Greek in culture the amenities reflected this and I was reaping the benefits of their food and drink. I tried cheese saganaki for the first time and for those of you who are cheese lovers it is a “must try” item, not to mention the method of serving which includes lighting the dish on fire followed by a loud chanting by the servers. (You feel as if it were your birthday and all it is is a piece of cheese. Fantastically delicious fried cheese).

This photo gallery includes shots I took of the lovely fisherman’s village. I recommend anyone stop by for a visit if you are in the general Tampa area.

I hope you enjoy the photos. (Suddenly I am hungry for cheese saganaki, although I am a bit fearful to even attempt to prepare this dangerous dish in my apartment after the last time I almost burned the building down. That of course, is another story).

Happy web surfing.

Ian D. Campbell